It has been 5 days since i arrived in Konstanz. I have managed to get myself oriented, having gone through the city, and university.
So far, every single day when i wake up, there's still some desire to go back home. some apprehension about how my day will be. but i strongly believe that it is because i had arrived early, and was probably too free. and when u're free, and u face four walls in ur room, u just start missing home.
but things are getting better. when i was washing my clothes today, it jus occured to me it felt like when i was staying in hall. here, i have the freedom to do anything i want, at any time. everything was my own responsibility, and to my own discretion. how this overseas experience turns out is up to me. it struck me that i am merely just choosing a path slighltly more challenging, throwing myself in a foreign land so that i am forced to grow up faster.
i am glad that this thought struck me today. because of it, i am feeling much better now. so far, when i wake up in the mornings, i start to have tears in my eyes. maybe cos stupid me decided to put my family photo on the wall where i can see it the first second i open my eyes in the morning, if i am facing the wall. u see.. it's the same thing even in sgp. i can get bored to tears altho i am at home. we go to school for three months, den when we suddenly have no school, we get lost. the only difference now is that i am overseas, away from the comfort of home. so, i don't think i will miss home so much anymore from tomorrow onwards. lessons are starting and i will not be so free anymore. i will have a routine lifestyle like i had in singapore. so, i guess, in a few weeks time, i should be all used to the life.
and with this thought, i have decided that i shall try to mix around more with the locals here. it is difficult, like how i will nv imagine mixing with exchange students in NUS. but i shall work towards my aim of fluent german by feb 08. initial plans of running to the library in the afternoons so that i can go on msn and talk to my family and friends are now banished. i will just go online as and when i am free, like when i was in singapore. altho my lifestyle now is to be slightly different, my habits can remain. tt's me! wherever i am.
yup! tt's just what went through my mind today. and i decided to share it with all of u who read. i shall go back to my hostel now... gotta bathe n prep for my dinner. i am getting hungry..