FREAKING OUT!

yes. it's sinking in. i'm FREAKING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!

3 more days before i leave. i have yet to finish packing, yet to get all my stuff, yet to get my VISA! argh!!!!!! i can't sleep. i'm scared. i'm having last min pre-sep departure jitters. i can't get to sleep cos i keep thinking of unknown things.

i can't think straight now... shivers.

one more week to go...

ok. it's one more week plus one more day lah. but it's almost the same to me..

there's still not much pre-departure jitters. the thought of being away for 6 months has yet to sink into me. I have yet to start missing my parents, missing my brothers but i believe i will soon enough. haha.. it's funny how i'll miss my bros more than my parents. maybe cos we've always been annoying the hell out of each other. ok... not so much of kor kor cos he's always away ever since i donno when. but for my little brother, maybe it's cos we're the only ones at home and i am just so used to having my 小弟 around that it actually feels like something's missing when he's overseas or when i'm not staying at home for a long period of time.

anyway, i just made another trip down to the embassy. I'm glad they're not a mean bunch. ok. maybe besides the phone. the lady at the counter refused to give me a confirmation, insisting that i must email and just wait for a phone call. but she did say that i'll confirm be able to get my visa by next monday. maybe just to make myself feel better, i choose to believe her words. i hope i'll get a phone call from the embassy soon. if not, i'll just go crazy soon.

meanwhile, i've still got insurance to settle. and friends to meet. met the twins yest and it's wonderful esp since we only meet less than 5 times a year now compared to meeting almost everyday for 6 years of our life. still to go, peiying, joseph, jeffrey, weihuang, danny, ray, michelle... it's been a long time since i met up with some of them. hmm... and while meeting, the best thing to do is to whack as much singaporean food as possible. i'm gg to miss it so much.

i wonder how it's gg to be like next week...

gan chiong spider

i'm so pissed cos i'm so gan chiong. i'm so gan chiong cos i have no freaking idea wat's my visa application status as of now. WHY in the world do they place telephone numbers on the website when nobody answers? WHY in the world do they place an EMERGENCY number on the website when the phone is off?! i'm totally pissed! wat's the use of the phone?!! d**n it.

i have no idea what i should do now. i need to confirm n buy my air ticket. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!! i'm gg crazy. i have to confirm my flight by next monday. the bloody german embassy better pick up the phone or i'll be on my way to raffles place to ask. retarded. like mentally, but really... retarded as in SLOW-ed.

accommodation settled.

upon my return from phuket, i saw a letter from seezeit lying on my table. i opened it and was informed that i've gotten a room at Sonnenbuehl OST. yup yup! tt's the place i wanted... near to school n cheaper. hope tt my floor mates are gd too.

i find it funny how i didn't even get a single reply from the lady i wrote to... and then, a week later, i get a letter indicating my preference for my room. The international office lady told me i was lucky to get europahaus(my initial allocation), and i shouldn't change anymore. but the thought of having to cycle back to my hostel in the cold leaves me shivering. i think there's pros n cons lah. just see how everything turns out.

yeah... time's flying. 10 more days to departure. may my visa arrive in my hands before i board the plane.

aurora borealis

i've been watching alot of j-dramas. it happens during hols when u can just don't do anything else. watch into the wee hours and probably cry till ur eyes swell. well, anyway, here's something i learnt about in one of the shows.

the show is called 'Last Christmas'. i learnt about something called auroras from the show. they're also known as northern lights. the picture shows an aurora over Bear Lake, in Alaska. haven't really gotten down to read about it cos there's so much physics theories behind it. the only thing i know is that, the places where u can see northern lights are freaking cold. like negative 40 dC. interesting right?

yup. just a short entry to share my latest craze with my friends.

Accommodation woes

I just received my letter for housing today... i got my choice. No.1 in pict. my university is right on top. circled in pink. my friend stays at 11, and takes 10 mins to walk to school.

I have totally no idea wat the hell i was thinking when i made the choice. ok. no.1 is known as WG. Wohngemeinschaft. it's an apartment with 4 rooms. so, 4 pple share an appartment. ratio of 2 guys 2 girls/ 2 germans 2 foreigners. quite interesting? yeah. i agree. u get a living room among the 4 of u, but washing is done in a common laundry area. i don't understand how they function. anyway, it costs 220 euro per month, and tt does not include misc fees. plus the transport costs i'll have to pay to go to school.

I am trying to change to somewhere ard 9, 10 or 11. i hope i can get a room in time. those places offer single room (think pgp). my friend staying there now shares the level with 6 others. difference from WG is prob don't have a living area? yeah.. well, it costs 170+ euros. which means, 50Euro cheaper per month. i'm staying there for at least 6 months... altho my father says it's ok, i still hope i can change. it's quite a significant amt over 6 months. and it pains me to see him work so hard and i'm like spending his money like water.

I'm glad i got BW scholarship. too bad i didn't do well for my uni... if not, i could have applied for NASA and get a substantial amt in total. okok.. 'too bad' and 'if's will never come. so i shall go sleep n not think abt them. just hope for the best....

Meanwhile, i pray my visa is flying to me. if it's crawling, i'll never get it in time.

time to wake up.

i'm seriously pissed with myself for all these last min sh**.

i think i should learn my lesson for my visa, and stop wasting time staring into space. time for me to sit down and think of what i've got to pack. there's a hell load from winter clothings to shoes to medication (super impt) to toiletries to first aid to ok. i donno wat already. tt's why i've got to start jotting them down and planning.

i've submitted my visa. i just hope for the best now. stupid prof chan better say OK for my module mapping. he's such a moron. urgh.

shall disappear now.

visa problems

and i was still talking about getting my visa done soon cos it's probably the most troublesome thing.

i went down to the german embassy today and found out to my horror. my visa takes a minimum of 23 days to be done. on the website, it says "Processing time is approximately 4 working-days. " and there's no such thing as a urgent visa with the germans. so how!? i cannot fly ah?!!?! moreover, they required so much more documents den stated on the website. their stupid phone line doesn't work. den put information and phone number there for wat? argh.

i've to go down tomorrow again. to get it done. i really hope that they can tell me something better. better than ' i think you'll have to change your flight.' cos the flights are FULLY booked. there's no way i can change my flight and dream of getting there in time for my course.

oh well. serve me right. and the stupid visa has the dumbest regulations for their photos. it cost me $10.50 to take 4 photos. the photoshop claimed that 'our's is professional.' (@#$%^@%#$) wat rubbish.

PHOTO REGULATIONS:
The photo must clearly show the person‘s facial features from
the tip of the chin to the crown of the head as well as the left and right
sides of the face. The face must take up 70 - 80% of the photo. This
corresponds to a height of 32 - 36mm. In the case of voluminous hair, it
must be ensured that the head (including the hairstyle) is fully depicted
without reducing the size of the face, if possible. The height of the face
may not be less than 32mm. The face must be centred in the photo.


and this is only a short portion. they still have sample pictures to go along with instructions. and yeah. the police man/security guard won't allot you to enter unless you have your photos and SGD130 in cash. they gave me a piece of paper. 'here. u can go to the nearest photo shop. soo kee photo donno wat lah.' ROAR. how friendly..

okok i just hope that i can get my visa on time... if not, i really donno wat to do.

Maths Dept

Friends and relatives who hear that I am studying Mathematics usually give me the first reaction of "maths?!?!?! WHY?" Here's the reason.

I can't do Humanities for nuts. cos i can't really write very well. Econs was out cos of torturous Marhaini in AC (haha.. ok. she wasn't THAT bad, but econs was still my worst A'Level subject.) so, stuck with Science Fac. Physics is out cos i never did physics after sec2. YES... totally no physics background. i don't even know what's e=mc(square). I was way tooooo stupid in sec 2. didn't managed to get into physics-chem classes in sec 3. but who cares?! i've been more than happy doing bio-chem! and i love bio too cos it's so interesting! ok... so, why not bio and chemistry degree? hee hee... try imagine staying in the lab for 6 hours. SIAO ah! okok.. it's not for me. those doing bio and chem, no bad feelings k? it's just that i seriously don't think i'll wanna stay in the lab for such a big portion of my uni life. so, yeah. (kinda) left with MATHS lor!

It was tough at first... but it got interesting. Maths in uni does not deal with solving 1+1=2. it deals with WHY 1+1=2, and stuff liddat. shall not elaborate. Anyway, things are still tough, and i don't really do well in my course. i think my course mods average at B-. quite jialat, but at least, i still have interest in it.

Anyway, i went to the maths department yesterday to look for my SEP coordinator. he's the person who signs my form, and then tada! i'll get my module mapping done. I must say that i am very impressed by his sincerity to help. the list of course modules i provided him was in German. He came from taiwan. It came a time when both of us didn't understand some words... and guess wat? he just called another prof in to help! ok... maybe they are too free, got nothing to do. but sometimes, not my business, i got time, i also won't help. but these profs, 2 of them, just took time off to slowly read my list of German modules. and helped me with the mapping! I could really give a sigh of relief. cos things are falling into place. I'm so thankful to them.. Also, looking at the books in their room makes me wanna go further in pursuing mathematics. They are so into the subject they have shelves of books. Maybe, one day... if i'm passionate enough.

So, i took the first step in approaching my profs for help in module mapping. and this morning, to my surprise as if it's all planned, i received reply from the partner uni maths department!!!!!!!! WAH...... so excited! and my profs were right in predicting the module mapping. who in the world can guess that Optimierung will be mapped to NUS as non-linear programming? my prof said that i could map it as optimization since it sounds similar. well, it's up to me to map which ever i want. wheeeee.....

Yes... so, after everything, i shall say that, people who do maths are nice. modules may sound cheeeeem, but they are interesting. and so far, i've had pretty nice maths prof/lecturers. they are generally approachable. their lectures may suck. but come to think of it, i've survived. okok... maybe EXCEPT financial mathematics and Calculus. i may not have done fantastically well for the rest, but yeah. they're not tooo bad.

i shall do clear my module mapping now, so that i can cancel it off my list. 30 more days....